I’m not saying mutual per se, just that it’s where his attraction lies. (Partially because I had a huge crush on him even before I knew I was gay) Jiro is more driven than his teammates – he’s not a clan kid or from a konoha family. But he’s also more calm, and a bit reserved. He doesn’t like having to take charge, because it’s not something he’s used to. Or something. Another topic: For Youbirin, I was thinking it’d be neat if he had access to some neat forbidden meds, like a battle-pharmacist?

There is something oddly attractive about Kiba–though I myself am aero ace–he seems like the kind of guy who everyone has a crush on at some point in their lives, even if it is a very brief crush.

Given what we’ve come up with for Jiro’s background that sort of personality does fit. I wonder if he’s the kind of person who has to frequently tell himself “bear with it, I’ve had worse” whenever someone insults him because of his heritage. “This is nothing compared to X physical wound,” or “that doesn’t even make sense, is that supposed to offend me?” And obviously, Jiro would get his crush on Kiba because Kiba stands up for him whereas Jiro would have just taken it.

As for Youbirin, I’d worry that the forbidden meds would edge a little too close to the Akimichi three color pills–and given that similarity, it’d be odd for the Suzu/Nohara to have such knowledge and not be more closely allied with the Ino-Shika-Cho clans. I do agree that the Suzu/Nohara clan would more likely have some secret clan knowledge than a blood limit–or their ability is so mild as to not have elevated them into one of the major clans. Like… I dunno, magic diagnostic powers. Which only helps if you can actually back it up with healing. I mean, it’d make the Suzu/Nohara clan an integral part of the Medic Corps, but not very helpful beyond it? Which is kind of the vibe we’ve been developing for their clan.

Okay, Jiro it is! I still have a ways to go to catch up, but I do have a few ideas for specific plot points. Would giving Jiro a crush on Kiba be too much? Or just enough?

I was also thinking Kiba! 😀 But, I mean, I was specifically thinking one-sided Jiro/Kiba? Mostly because I love some one-sided pining!character A and oblivious!character B who is so damned friendly and gregarious that it makes character A’s crush all the worse. It’s soooooo good.

But a mutual Jiro/Kiba would be okay, too, I suppose.

I’m wondering, though, what about Shino? I feel like he’d have a solid grip on his own identity–a steadiness that Jiro would appreciate–though I guess it depends on what kind of personality Jiro has to see what that dynamic would be…

So I’m really behind on DoS stuff and I’m just now attempting to get back into it. (And I’m sorry I’m not good at maintaining conversations with people regularly!) But I was curious if you’ve thought any about the Team Medic AU since we last discussed it? My personal thought was that I’m definitely making either Jiro or Youbirin gay, but I’m not sure which yet. (It was actually that thought of forcing representation into the universe with my own two hands that made me want to get back into DoS.)

Hello again! I was a little worried that I had somehow offended you with my overeagerness to talk about Team Medic AU–like I had completely jumped the gun and put pressure on you to do a thing that you were only tentatively thinking of doing. I hope that’s not how I come off across as–I just really love brainstorming and was pretty excited to brainstorm with someone else and not just by myself. 😀

DoS is quite the undertaking–even when we first corresponded it was maybe eighty chapters? And now it’s over a hundred so it’s definitely a marathon of a fic, not a sprint. Silver Queen recently updated the chapter titles to include story arcs so if you want to pace yourself but find single chapters not enough you can read by arcs instead.

I have actually thought a bit more about the Team Medic AU–though unfortunately I haven’t really noted them down much anywhere because I didn’t want to hijack the AU when it really is a collaboration. I remember it was mostly some world-building though? I remember seeing this post regarding money in the Naruto world and I rambled a bit about how the calculations might be correct but how the values might not be (since inflation rates would be different due to the differing technologies) towards the end I wondered what exactly shinobi were spending their money on, and while I didn’t follow that line of thought at that time I think I wanted to in a Team Medic mindset.

Especially considering that those mission rates are probably Konoha-specific and it’s basically canon that Konoha has the best healthcare of all the villages (and maybe Fire Nation has the best of all the countries as a result?) then I wonder if there’s something going on there. Like… is Konoha so advanced that they have free healthcare and everywhere else is still doing pay out of pocket? Or is there health insurance companies? Is it only free for active shinobi (and their dependents)? Does this in fact extend beyond Konoha into the rest of the country? How much do medics get paid? There are probably medics who specialize in different things but do certain “departments” get paid more/are more prestigious?(Sorry, I was an Econ major so my brain got caught on this track for a while).

And all of this shakes out to, basically, figuring out how the Medic Corps works and how Team Medic would fit into it. Because the Medic Corps are comprised of the “civilians with chakra” and the Academy graduates that didn’t get onto a jounin team and didn’t want to just be shuffled into the regular Genin Corps–so Team Medic would be a little outside of the usual Medic Corps process of training but still likely in line with it considering their sensei would be–as we discussed here – a combat-medic on sabbatical of sorts.

I also had some Suzu/Nohara clan thoughts on behalf of Youbirin–trying to figure out what their clan would be like in order to figure out his personal storyline better. Like… exactly how large/prestigious are they? Are they ambitious? Are they strict? Do they actually have any secret clan abilities? Is Youbirin clan heir? Those sorts of thoughts.

As for making either Jiro or Youbirin gay, I say go for it–specifically, go for whichever one would make a) sense for that character and b) an interesting story whether or not it includes a romantic subplot (I say this because being LGBT+ is more about a sense of identity than the actual attraction).

Maybe consider, also, a bisexual Sakura? Like–it’s canon that she is attracted to men but it’s never been specifically stated she’s NOT attracted to women as well, and I’m of the mind that unless it’s been explicitly stated/proven then anything goes? Even with Shikako–though this is more because SQ wants to keep the story gen–she’s never given any hints about what she might (not) be attracted to… It’s my personal headcanon that she’s biromantic ace but everyone’s interpretations are different and, until Word of God says otherwise, completely valid.

As for “forcing representation into the universe,” well, the ships for DoS are very het-populated, but I’m pretty sure that’s the fault of Masashi Kishimoto for having so few female characters that just strictly statistically speaking there are more guys than girls to ship Shikako with. Literally, there are at least twice as many potential het ships for Shikako because there are at least twice as many guys as girls. In fact, given SQ’s creation of the kunoichi study group, she’s increased female interaction such that there are more opportunities for Shikako to be shipped with one of the other kunoichi.

I’m not really on top of the entirety of DoS ships, but as far as I knew it was mostly about who Shikako might end up with? I wasn’t aware that there were any non-Shikako ships being discussed, although the argument could be made that since DoS!Sasuke is vastly different to canon!Sasuke that shipping him with a character would be an entirely distinct experience from the canon!Sasuke shipping. I was a wee NaruSasu shipper back in the day (pre-Shippuden, because NaruSasu in Shippuden is just so toxic it makes me sad) but I can definitely say that a NaruSasu ship would manifest differently in the DoS universe.

Now, to step away from my vague ranting, if it is a matter of either Jiro OR Youbirin, I’m really unsure… actually… well… what I’m worried about is–given the plan we had for Youbirin being mentored by Kabuto–it might edge into even creepier exploitation. We already made an Orochimaru comparison, but I’d be really uncomfortable about having Kabuto essentially grooming Youbirin in the psychological manipulation definition. And you know Kabuto would take advantage of any weakness Youbirin shows–and Youbirin wouldn’t know that it even is a weakness to be hidden. Basically, for Youbirin to be betrayed by his senpai/mentor is one thing–but for him to be betrayed by (presumably) his first crush? Who exploited him? (uh… no thank you)

Whereas with Jiro it can be a part of his discovering his self-identity character development. You can do a romantic subplot without it being creepy, and you can even have it be one-sided without it being squicky like with Youbirin and Kabuto. Actually, it’d be interesting if Jiro had a crush on Youbirin but eventually grew out of it? Like, maybe the hanger-on thing during the Academy was the expression of that childhood crush but after they graduate it kind of fades or maybe Jiro deliberately lets it go (but Youbirin will still be his friend and teammate, which is basically family). And maybe he gets a crush on someone else–maybe Neji, if you want the drama–someone who is so definitively Konoha that it kind of ties together with his “loyalty is to people not to an idea” subplot.

Uh… I think I answered everything? And, of course, feel free to hit me up for more brainstorming. If you like, you can make a post of it on your blog and either tag me in it or just send me the link that way I can just reblog it and you won’t be limited to the ask or messaging system.

It’d be nice to correspond with you again 🙂

Down Every Road: Or, Some Ways Shikako and Sasuke Get Together, 1/? (2016-04-09)

(one: arranged marriage)

Shikaku’s daughter is a quiet creature. Content, but silent; solitary. She would rather read books or watch the grazing deer or follow in his and Yoshino’s footsteps than go outside and play with the other children.

It’s nothing to be worried about: Shikamaru is much the same, switching shogi for books and deer for clouds, though he, at least, has Chouji. Shikaku had been self-contained as a child, too, it is the way of most Nara children, he thinks, though he remembers, hazily, how Ikoma had been a little more active.

Eventually Shikako will come out of her shell–or perhaps she won’t, there is no rushing these things, pressure will only make the matter worse–Shikaku is prepared to be patient with his daughter.

Patience is not the problem.

“You want… what?” Shikaku asks, blindsided for the first time in three years–the last time had been when the ambassador from Cloud double crossed them and tried to kidnap the Hyuuga heiress–and by his own daughter no less.

His tiny, quiet daughter, who looks up at him, head tilted slightly, as if he’s the one acting oddly. “An engagement,” she says, with an odd twist to her mouth, as if the very word is bitter on her tongue, “to Sasuke Uchiha.”

He looks at Yoshino who also has an expression of bewilderment on her face.

“Shikako, sweetheart,” she says, stalling for time, trying to parse her thoughts, doing a better job than he is at the moment. “Just because you have a crush on this boy, it doesn’t mean you need to marry him. You can,” she pauses, glances at Shikaku, finding some sort of comfort from him, “Start small, honey, try being his friend first.”

It’s sound advice, truly; it probably would have ended the conversation if this were in fact a discussion about a girl with a crush on a boy.

It is not.

“I don’t have a crush on him,” Shikako says, entirely honest, no hint of embarrassed denial in her tone, “I don’t want this for me, I want this for…”

She drifts off. Neither he or Yoshino want to interrupt, and so they stay silent as she thinks. Searching for the right words.

“It’s the smart thing to do.”

[She is only a child, an untrained child, but what is the point of having this knowledge if not to save lives? She cannot stop this as a shinobi, not with her chakra hypersensitivity and her less than a year’s worth of training, not against S-class ninja who would sooner kill her than look at her.

But in this world she is not only a child. She is a Nara. The clan head’s only daughter, and that means something.

The Uchiha were isolated, seething and resentful, planning for a coup against a village that had already betrayed them. But what if she could change that? What if somehow, she could bring them back into the fold? The Uchiha were one of the founding clans of Konoha, and they just have to be reminded of this fact.

She is a Nara, and with her comes her clan. And where her clan goes, the Akimichi and the Yamanaka follow. And four clans is enough, has to be enough. Danzo cannot kill them all, not when the Akimichi are so deeply entrenched in the civilian sectors. Not when the Yamanaka pervade every branch of the shinobi forces. Not when her father is the Jounin Commander, as his father was before him, as, likely, his son will be after him.

She can do this. This isn’t something that requires chakra and jutsu and strength she doesn’t yet have and might never get. And, anyway, marriage is such a small thing to sacrifice to save so many lives and to prevent so much grief and hardship. It may not have to be a sacrifice at all. Sasuke, as she knows him from the past, was a product of his tragedy, twisted and angry and bitter but still with some moments of kindness and courage. Sasuke as she knows him now is just a little boy, but there is still kindness in him, and maybe some courage. More smiles, that’s for sure.

She will marry him and maybe they’ll become friends, maybe they’ll grow to love one another, maybe they’ll be happy together. But even if they don’t, even if they are cold to each other, civil colleagues forced to live together, then she’d still do it.

It’s the smart thing to do.]

~

A/N: Well… that was a quicker turn around time than I thought it would be. Also… I was supposed to go to sleep three hours ago but… oh well.

This is for you, anon, who wanted some Shikako/Sasuke. But that’s not all! As you can tell from the title I will be doing more installments of this in the future. Probably not as quickly–but it will definitely happen! Though, I’d definitely appreciate some Shikasuke-specific prompts to help with future installments

Title (or at least, the main title, not the subtitle) is from the song “The Only Dream” by Tyrone & Elina because it’s one of the few love songs in my favorites playlist and also it kind of works really well for the Shikasuke ship. Not this particular ficlet, but the general vibe I get of the ship from DoS.

Three Sentence Fic, the DoS Netsui/Shikako edition (2016-04-07)

(action/adventure)

It should feel wrong or, at the very least, strange to fight with Shikako Nara–not against her, but together, back to back. Netsui is a proud Kumo shinobi, she should not be able to fall into a battle rhythm so easily with someone who completely embodies the Leaf.

But they have a common enemy for now, and there’s no way she’s going to embarrass herself again in front of this particular Leaf kunoichi.

(angst)

When news of a wedding–an actual confirmed wedding, and not just the endless rumors that plague the gossip mill–reaches Netsui she very carefully does not react.

Even if she had wanted something, she never really stood a chance. It’s better to shove those feelings beneath thoughts of honor and becoming stronger; better not to want anything at all.

(crossover/fusion)

There are very few Amestrian State Alchemists with Xingese heritage, and fewer still that can do both alchemy and alkahestry without any transmutation circles. In fact, there is only one.

So Netsui is confident, as she swings her sword, that she has chosen her target correctly.

(fluff)

Netsui is one of the proctors for the Chuunin Exam so, given how her luck works, she shouldn’t be surprised that the Nara is here with a batch of genin brats in tow.

They’re decent, she supposes, understandable given who their jounin-sensei is, but they could be better.

Which does nothing to explain why Netsui corrects one of the brat’s grip on his sword, or the way her face flushes when the Nara smiles in thanks.

(friendship)

If someone had told Netsui that she’d one day be drinking buddies with Sasuke Uchiha she wouldn’t have even laughed–she probably would have stabbed the person for disparaging her character like that–as it is, they would have been right.

“And her hair is so,” Sasuke mumbles with the usual tone of drunken despair, “it’s so shiny and soft. So pretty,” he hiccups.

Netsui, comfortably drunk herself, can only nod in wishful, commiserating agreement.

(horror)

She doesn’t mean to stumble upon the scene, but Netsui is the only witness as Shikako Nara executes the camp’s missing prisoner.

“How is this any different from Edo Tensei?” she asks, after watching the prisoner’s corpse disappear into a shadowy maw.

The creature that wears Shikako’s face just smiles.

(hurt/comfort)

“This is n-not the f-first time I’ve b-been stabbed in the b-back, lit-literally even” Nara struggles to say, unsurprisingly, given the sword likely puncturing one lung.

“Shut up,” Netsui responds, but her hands are gentle as she lowers the other kunoichi down, wrapping bandages to apply pressure on the wound.

Then she draws her own sword; Netsui may not be able to fix everything, but she can at least solve one of their problems: the enemy is unarmed–literally and figuratively.

(romance)

There is peace between nations, and Karui is engaged to marry Akimichi, so it’s not like what Netsui is about to do is unprecedented. She’s still damn nervous, though.

“Nara,” she says, then corrects herself, “Shikako… would you like to have dinner with me tonight?”

(smut)

Dinner was a disaster. Netsui spent the entire time cringing at her own awkwardness, at the way Shikako tried to fill in the silence with strained conversation.

Dessert goes much better.

~

A/N: I’m gonna hand wave some stuff here–like, how exactly certain situations come about… and why Sasuke would befriend a Kumo kunoichi and enough to share his one-sided feelings for Shikako–because even if these things are terribly grammatically incorrect, they are only nominally three sentences.

So this is for anon’s prompt for some (one-sided) Netsui/Shikako. And I did say I wasn’t sure which direction I should go… which is why I chose all of them. ALL THE DIRECTIONS.

But seriously, hope ya’ll enjoy. 🙂

edit: now on ao3 as part of the Dreaming One Shots collection here

Three Sentence Fic, the Grab Bag edition (2016-04-05)

A/N: Just a bunch of three sentence ficlets that my brain didn’t want to elaborate on…

~

It just didn’t seem fair, that he had loved so much, had lost so much, and didn’t even get to keep a trace of them. No scars on his skin, or trinkets to be carried around.

Just him and his ever fading memories.

“Not everyone gets second chances,” she says, hands fisted at her side, knuckles pale from the strength of it. She doesn’t want to fight, but it needs to be said:

“Sometimes, we don’t even get a first chance.”

Uzushio developed sustainable peace decades before the rest of the world did. There is danger in being the first.

They suffered the consequences for it.

Their son would never be king, regardless of his heritage. But he would be loved and, if nothing else, be kept safe.

Or at least, that’s what they had planned.

Sometimes she wants to shut her eyes, ignore Ryuk’s gravelly laughter, Light’s polite inanities, and L’s monotonous stream of conscious. She wishes she were anywhere else but here.

She can almost imagine the clicking of stones against wood.

“I wasn’t trained for this,” Starling says, brows furrowed above the line of his mask. Caleb looks away from the seething crowd of monsters thirty stories below them to his stepbrother, and stifles a laugh.

“I don’t think any of us were trained for this.”

Leanne wakes up with pain in her shoulders; one, due to a stab wound wrapped and recovering, the other stretched awkwardly with a set of handcuffs around her wrist to the bed. She smiles obnoxiously at Officer Sheridan and asks:

“What’s my safe word?”

Be brave, he thinks, stepping into the light, remembering the dragon’s words. All you need to succeed is imagination and courage.

He leaves the shadows and tries to remember what he is outside of dreams.

~

A/N: I don’t know if I want to tag all the things that these are from? I will for the ones explicitly stated but otherwise… guess that fic?

Dreaming of S(uccess, the hollow hearted edition), a DoS remix drabble (2016-03-28)

There is only one person that Shikako has ever honestly considered telling the truth about her past, but so long as he wears the Hokage’s hat she cannot:

Kakashi is the Rokudaime, an honor and responsibility that he never wanted but must dutifully serve until his successor is deemed ready. So long as he is the Hokage he cannot put his students’ lives above the rest of the village.

And so she does not tell him, even when her knowledge has stopped being relevant, even after all of the things she feared has been resolved and become the past twice over. She does not tell anyone.

Not until he passes down the hat.

Naruto, finally accepted by the village he calls home, stays and learns. Sasuke, chafing under the years of being protected with a short leash, requests missions with long durations in far off places.

Shikako chooses to wander the land–training trip or research trip or maybe even both, inheriting Jiraiya’s role as spymaster and fuinjutsu master and author (though her books are far less perverted in nature).

During war, Team Seven banded together to save the world. In peace, they spiral apart.

Perhaps one day they will be reunited, but there is very little that can stand up to one of them, much less requires all three, and so that day is far away.

There are marriages and children and entire lives being lived without her, and Shikako realizes, almost five months after her twentieth birthday, that this is basically the same thing that must have happened after whatever ripped her from her old world reincarnated her in this world.

Maybe her sister got married, maybe there is a niece or nephew in that old world that she has never met and will never meet. Or has time progressed even further–another generation on who wouldn’t even be told of their missing great aunt, much less care.

She doesn’t know if there’s a niece and nephew here, in this version of this world, that she hasn’t yet met.

She goes home immediately.

She regrets it almost immediately.

She’s grown beyond the shape she once carved herself into for their sakes, and now they no longer fit.

She doesn’t know if she means her brother, her team, or Konoha itself.

It’s stifling and bewildering, this place she once called home, this place she killed and died for. All of the changes like unfamiliar scars on people who she once would have said she knew better than anyone.

That is no longer the case.

Shikamaru has long since learned to be less protective of her–his twin his shadow his sister–but now he has a wife and child and somehow Shikako is no longer his. Sasuke has settled into his own skin, an identity she has never seen, a life she could have never predicted. Naruto is the hero grown, triumphant, successful; he does not need her to guide the way, to show him how to make dreams reality.

He’s already done so.

Naruto is no longer a boy hoping to be the Hokage.

He is the Hokage.

Which means Kakashi is not.

Once, he may have been the only person she ever considered telling the truth, but that was many years ago.

She has changed and so, too, has he.

~

A/N: … I’m posting this as a response to this prompt because this is what shook out of my brain, but I’m not entirely satisfied with this so I will hopefully be making a less bleak/rambling edition

Stories of Ancient Gods, a DoSxFFVII crossover drabble (2016-03-15)

A/N1: Okay, so you remember that ask about what I would crossover with DoS and I ranted for a long time and said I would probably not do any of them.

Well. I am a liar.

So here’s a rambling FFVIIxDoS-esque… thing… (only the barest of FFVII is actually used, really).

There is no fate.

Shikako believes this to be true–knows it is true, needs it to be true–because how could she exist, otherwise?

Because, if fate did exist, then what would that make the person who changed it? Either there is no fate, or there is and Shikako has diverted it.

No matter what the civilians think–of her and her teammates who took on bijuu and the human monsters that tried to control them–no matter the whispering she still sometimes hears when she closes her eyes and sees the ghosts of stars in her sleep, she is not a god.

She needs this to be true.

Planets change over time: continents shifting and mountains rising and oceans receding. Shikako knows that once the Land of Fire was more volcanoes than forest, Land of Wind was not always a desert, and even the continent of the Elemental Nations was not configured eons ago the way it is now.

She knows this from the past and so it is no surprise that something holds over from it. Mostly, the disbelief that humans existed before the planet had rearranged itself.

The Book of Gelel is old, the Empire of Gelel existing even before the Sage of the Six Paths which is–in the eyes of shinobi history, a very long time indeed–but the book speaks of even older civilizations who themselves revered an ancient race as gods.

Or, rather, goddess. One who saved the world from famine and war and pestilence and death.

Even if she were willing to ask the question, the only two jinchuuriki with whom she would be comfortable with asking are themselves not close enough to their bijuu to ask. Not with Shukaku gone insane in captivity and Kurama still so bitter and angry from being passed down like a family heirloom. Or a slave.

No, Shikako cannot ask Gaara or Naruto to pass on the question, and so there is no way she can get the answer.

It’s not as if she can ask Shukaku and Kurama directly.

And anyway, she doesn’t really need them to tell her about Kaguya Otsutsuki. Not when the whispers in her sleep already speak of that mistake and their redemption through Shikako.

Shikako learns how to be a sage not from the deer summons–who themselves do not have the knowledge–or from Jiraiya–who has an obligation to Naruto above anyone else–or even from the Fire Temples as suggested.

No, as with many things, Shikako learns from a book.

Well, a book and a stone.

Sometimes the whispers follow Shikako when she is awake, but only as flashes of thought. Nothing that would distract her during battle or put pressure on her already busy mind.

No, there is danger in offering too much all at once. They have learned that lesson the hard way.

But sometimes, Shikako will catch sight of her teammates, hear that flicker of thought, and wonder at the incongruity. Because no one would look at Team Seven and single out Sasuke as chaos. And only those who have not spoken to Naruto could ever consider him a weapon.

Kakashi is dangerous, yes, but never to her–and yet the whispers turn into a brief scream of fear and calamity.

It is better if she does not look.

Here is the problem with stories: they are only ever a possibility. There is no real ending in life and so stories, with such a brief glimpse into a world, cannot contain the entire truth.

Stories can be lies, and vice versa.

Stories can also be lessons.

Like an object in motion, at any given point in time, either its velocity or its position can be observed. But not both.

Shikako feels like object and observer and does not know yet what it means.

~

A/N2: Eeeeeeeeh? Yeah? I dunno?

HERE, TAKE MY THOUGHTS.

edit: now on ao3 as part of the Dreaming One Shots collection here

Gambling Away The Past 4/? (2016-03-13)

Being on Team Kakashi–this strange past version of it–is not so different from being on the Team Kakashi Shikako grew up with. Team Sevens are almost always structured the same way, heavy hitters with big personalities and the same formula of rivalries and friendship somehow interlocking into a functional unit.

And yet, oddly, it’s the similarities that make Shikako so keenly aware that this team is not her team. Or rather, the way the similarities make the differences stand out all the more. This Kakashi, young and angry and not eroded away by time and loss–or at least, not as much loss as her Kakashi–is like looking at the sketch of a familiar picture. The lines forming a recognizable shape, but still rough and colorless and liable to change.

Obito, like Naruto, burns in her chakra sense; bright and all-encompassing. But where Naruto was the sun, Obito is a volcano. Smaller yes, but somehow more dangerous. A natural disaster waiting to happen rather than the constant, reliable warmth of sunshine. Apt, considering what his future could have been, had Shikako not interfered.

What’s most fascinating–and unexpected–is Rin. Unsurprisingly, Shikako does not know much about Rin Nohara, not from either life. It’s shameful to think about in these terms, but the truth is: Rin had only existed as a part of Kakashi’s story, and not even a significant part–so tangential to main plot and tucked away in the corners of Kakashi’s mind with all of the other traumatic losses he suffered.

But meeting Rin in person is so interesting. Shikako’s only met a few people with naturally dual chakra natures–Tenzo and Mei Terumi among them–and it’s always interesting to her senses, but that’s not what is most interesting about her. Strangely, Rin reminds her not of Sakura or Shikako herself–but of Sasuke. Honed like a blade, her chosen role as a healer held above all other desires, and so damned loyal to her teammates.

Shikako is honored to be part of this Team Kakashi, even if it is not the Team Kakashi she grew up with. She is certain she will grow to love them as much as she does her own.

And anyway, Shikako has already changed the timeline, there is no harm in changing it further. If she can alter one life, surely she can save another and prevent the heartbreak of the third.

It is during Team Kakashi’s eighth mission that Shikako tries and fails to summon Heijomaru and nearly gets stabbed through chest for it. Been there, done that, she’d rather not have an encore.

Luckily, Obito takes the time out of his own fight to send a fireball to distract her enemy and she takes the opening to recover herself.

At the end of it, with Rin patching up their injuries with a stern face, Kakashi turns to her and asks, “What happened?”

Not out of concern, but the way one shinobi asks another for a report. Shikako is still not used to this Kakashi, the one who will have to learn about teammates and friendships the slower, easier way. If she were younger and softer she might have flinched at his tone, but she has not been that girl for a long time–that girl may very well never come to be.

“I tried a technique,” Shikako says simply, flatly, because two can play at this game, “It didn’t work.”

“You tried to summon something,” Kakashi corrects, because of course a fellow summoner would recognize the action.

“Yes,” she agrees, because there is no reason not to, “And it didn’t work,” she repeats pointedly, dismissive.

Kakashi ignores the cue to drop the matter and instead says, “We can’t have that kind of liability out in the field.”

Shikako, fed up with this harsh Kakashi and the stress of war and the knowledge that all she has ever known has been taken from her again, is less than pleased, “I won’t try to use it again!” she snaps, and doesn’t feel the slightest bit guilty at the way Obito’s eyes widen with surprise, or the way Rin stills completely.

But it’s what little of Kakashi’s expression she can read that makes her pause–the narrowing in his eyes that she recognizes from her own sensei–a point made and an argument won. Shikako realizes then that the lack of summoning might not be the only liability he was talking about. Her irritation recedes.

“We’ll head back to base camp for now,” Kakashi decides, “Ikoma-san will want to know what we’ve found,” he says, and that’s like Shikako’s Kakashi, too. A kindness hidden behind monotone and apathy–Shikako is a stranger amongst them, still, she may find comfort in her family.

It is well meant; it’s not his fault he doesn’t know that Ikoma is more of a stranger to her than Kakashi.

They report immediately to Ikoma–Team Seven luck remaining strong even backwards through the years as they explain how their scouting mission turned into a battle because of a stray combination Iwa-Kumo team–before Rin excuses herself to join the medical tent and the boys likewise leave to offer their services to the camp.

Leaving Shikako with the uncle that died before she was born.

They are Nara, far used to more subtle manipulations, and so their efforts are deemed obvious but charming for it. Between them they share an amused smile, a raised brow, and the smallest laugh–a fleeting moment of levity during war.

Ikoma waits for her to speak first, so much like Shikako’s father that she doesn’t feel the awkwardness she expected.

“I tried to summon Heijomaru,” she says, before hesitating, unsure if her uncle knows the deer summons by name.

But he is clan heir, now, and Ikoma laughs, “Sembei-obaasan let you sign the scroll?” Before he, too, hesitates, “Unless it wasn’t Sembei-obaasan… is she still alive when…” unready or perhaps unwilling to verbally acknowledge that Shikako is from the future–a future–though she knows he knows.

They stand in silence.

“I’m pretty sure she’s older than Konoha itself,” Shikako tries, which brings the smile back to both of their faces.

“I wouldn’t be surprised,” Ikoma nods, considering, “She’s not a field shinobi anymore, but given the tactical advantages of our clan’s summons she may have been deployed to one of the other base camps. I can send a request in, see if she can be sent here. If not, then have your team sent to wherever she is,” he says, in the recognizable tones of a Nara planning.

“Oh, that’s…” generous, kind, unnecessary, she doesn’t say.

“You’re family,” Ikoma says, argument against all three, efficient with his words in a way so familiar to her.

Because they are family, even if they are strangers to each other; he’d never send out troops hampered, he’s not going to do so to family.

And Shikako knows that it’s war and she can’t promise to save him, but she’s going to try.

~

A/N: 😀 …. or… O_O

I still have no idea what I’m doing with this series.

Don’t Hold Back, (tiny) part 2 (2016-03-10)

Given Shikako has literally received a promotion due to her sensing ability, and seeing as how Shikamaru, Naruto, and Sasuke have the three chakra signatures most familiar to her, it would be ridiculously stupid for them to try to use stealth and follow her. Which is why they outsource it.

Or… try to. Team Ebisu and Team Hana are not making it easy.

“Okay, Boss,” Konohamaru says, entirely cooperative, “but you know we’re not gonna do this for free.”

Naruto looks at him, stunned.

“We’re officially shinobi of Konoha,” Moegi explains, only a little smugly, “And what you’re describing sounds an awful lot like a mission.”

“What?” Naruto bursts out, “You cheapskates!”

“It’s probably a D-rank, maybe a C-rank at most,” Hanabi says with a pointed glance at Sasuke, “It’s not like you can’t afford it.”

Admittedly, Sasuke is disgustingly rich even without all of the pay he’s received from near constant patrols interspersed with A-ranks and S-ranks. So it’s true that alone he could pay for two C-ranks easily.

Doesn’t mean he wants to give them the satisfaction.

“Extortionists. You’re already going to train with her today,” Sasuke grumbles.

“We just know what we’re worth,” Ranmaru says, pleased.

“Just pay them,” Shikamaru mutters, jabbing his elbow into Sasuke’s ribs, “Unless you don’t want to know you Shikako’s dating.” As if Shikamaru himself weren’t the most invested in finding out who his sister is involved with.

“Fine, but Naruto’s paying the other team,” because there are only two teenagers with more A-ranks and S-ranks than Sasuke, and both of them are his teammates.

“That’s okay,” Naruto agrees affably, “I had some down time during a mission in Tanzaku Gai two weeks ago.”

Unfortunately, Naruto’s good luck does not extend to the two genin teams. Or maybe it does, because their self-styled mission–and their pay–extends beyond one day.

It takes a month.

And mostly? They figure it out via a giant process of elimination.

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A/N: So… I really did want to keep going but then I realized… I had no idea how yet? And I didn’t want this to just languish on my laptop for however long it took so… here’s this tiny installment. Hope ya’ll enjoy–especially you, @openace who reminded me about this particular DoS remix series.

Anyway, given how Konoha is super fond of “if it ain’t broke don’t fix it” when it comes to team configurations and the whole “Shikako’s stray thoughts are actually hella important foreshadowing” I figured that while the Konohamaru corps became Team Ebisu as in canon, the other kids would be the Team Eight remake–that is, this time it’s Aburame-Hyuuga-genjutsu specialist genin with an Inuzuka sensei. And I like to think that Hana gets promoted during the time skip and, in the same way Kurenai became a sensei, she does too. Also, I just really like the idea of each of the Haimaru brothers having a specific genin they watch over.

I suppose where it’s implied that Kurenai’s Team Eight is a tracking team eventually specializing in hunting down missing nin/enemies, Team Hana would be more a tracking team eventually specializing in search and rescue kind missions.

edit: added to Dreaming One Shots along with part 1