Thanks! Hopefully I can maintain that level for the rest of the event đ
Author: jacksgreyson
Progress. Because a lot of rehearsal is sitting and waiting and then panicking.
(They Call It) Soulless, #8, Kamaru
(They Call It) Soulless,  8) things you said when you were crying
Kako says that the things he learns at the Academy are more like general suggestions than hard and fast rules. âThe point of the Academy is to standardize everything so that shinobi who havenât worked with each other before can function as a team if needed. Teamwork is Konohaâs forte, after all,â she says, âBut even concepts that sound good have their faults.â
Kako says a lot of things like that, things that force Kamaru to reconsider what other people say. Look underneath the underneath. Mostly, itâs just to prompt him into critical thinking, but there are some Academy lessons that she outrightly dismisses, practically spitting on them.
âA shinobi must never show emotion?â Kako sneers, reading over Kamaruâs shoulder at his homework on the kitchen table, âHow stupid.â
Kamaru blinks, looks up at his sister, surprised. More for her venomous tone than the opinion itself.
Kako sighs, softens, explains. She tries to find teaching moments in everything. Sometimes, Kamaru wonders what sheâs preparing him for. âOf course, professionalism is important while on duty, and stoicism in the face of danger can be a shield of sorts, but to say never is overly restrictive and impossible to do. Also, emotions can be weapons of their own. Well. I donât need to tell you that, youâve met Gai-senpai.â
Kamaru shudders. Yes, he has met his sisterâs zealously enthusiastic senpai.
âNot to mention things like killing intent or positive intent⌠And for all that weâre shinobi, weâre still human. Emotions and all.â
Kamaru nods, marks a bold line through rule #25 on his homework, and keeps going. But he doesnât really consider the entirety of this conversation until later in the evening, after heâs gone to bed then woken back up, thirsty and blearily walking to the kitchen practically still asleep.
Kako is already thereâmostly because their apartment is so small that the kitchen is also their dining and living roomâstanding in front of the framed picture of their parents, the small stone tablet with their names on the shelf beside it.
Itâs the closest thing their parents have to a gravestone. After they died, the Nara had offered to bury their father in the clan graveyard with his family. But they hadnât extended the offer to their mother.
Unsurprisingly, Kako had refused. âThey would want to be together,â she had said. Kako hadnât cried then.
Sheâs crying now.
âItâs harder than I thought it would be,â she says to the two dimensional faces of their parents.
Kamaru freezes in place, unable to move forward.
âBut Iâm going to keep doing it. Even if you wouldnât approve. I have to protect him. I donât know if you would have let me. Sometimes I think⌠itâs awful⌠but I know that a few weeks more and you would have followed procedure.â
Kamaruâs thoughts whirl. What procedure? Heâs pretty sure that Kako is talking about him, but what is she referring to? Her next words send him retreating to his room.
âI canât help but wonder if maybe it was for the better that youâre gone.â
Missed Post (2018-04-09)
*SIGH* đŚ
I even specifically asked for prompts so that this wouldnât happen. Rehearsal ran late, not entirely unexpected, and will probably do so for the rest of the week.
But thanks everyone for sending in prompts, I am still going to try my best to fill them for the âThings You Saidâ ask box event. I should have time tomorrow (or, rather, later today) and maybe will be able to set up a queue of posts?
And if anyone is in the San Francisco area and is interested in seeing whatâs taken up so much of my time, come check out The Geek Show!
photos by Paciano Triunfo @mopix926
(or, Lup and the other LGBTQ+ members of the troupe being fabulous)
Thank you for the prompt fill! ^_^ I’m not sure why, but I got the feeling of a time travel fic? I really can’t pin down why, tho :/ I absolutely loved the split between the frailty of her body and the strength of her mind.
Youâre welcome! I filled it and then worried that it wasnât anywhere close to what you wanted, so Iâm glad to hear you enjoyed it. đ
I suppose the time travelly vibe might come from the âcurrent physical Tetsuki is frail, but past dream Tetsuki is as strong as ever,â so that back and forth between the two states mimics time travel in a way?
And just my constant love of weird time travel shenanigans leakig through.
(Also, please do send in a prompt for the ask box things you said event! I love receiving your prompts even if Iâm never sure Iâm filling them properly)

photos by Paciano Triunfo @mopix926
(or, Lup and the other ladies of the troupe ready to kick some ass)
âprompts:
1) things you said at 1 am
2) things you said through your teeth
3) things you said too quietly
4) things you said over the phone
5) things you didnât say at all
6) things you said under the stars and in the grass
7) things you said while we were driving
8) things you said when you were crying
9) things you said when I was crying
10) things you said that made me feel like shit
11) things you said when you were drunk
12) things you said when you thought I was asleep
13) things you said at the kitchen table
14)things you said after you kissed me
15) things you said with too many miles between us
16) things you said with no space between us
17) things you said that I wish you hadnât
18) things you said when you were scared
19) things you said when we were the happiest we ever were
20) things you said that I wasnât meant to hear
21) things you said when we were on top of the world
22) things you said after it was over
23) things you said on the streetcar at 1 am
24) things you said with clenched fists
25) things you said in the back seat of a cab
26) things you said sitting still
27) things you said on the phone at 4 am
28) things you said but not out loud
29) things you said in the backyard at night
30) things you said on the highway
31) things you said while I cried in your arms
32) things you said I wouldnât understand
33) things you said at the back of the theatre
34) things you said in your sleep
35) things you said that made me feel real
36) things you said youâll never forget
37) things you said with the tv on mute
38)things you said while holding my handâ
39) things you said when we first met
40) things you said when you met my parents
41) things you said you loved about me
42) things you said when you asked me to marry you
43) things you said in our vows
44) things you said before you kissed me
45) things you said on new yearâs eve
46) things you said when you kissed me goodnight
47) things you said in a hotel room
48) things you said on our honeymoon
49) things you said when we were 18
50) things you said when we were 70
51) things you said as we danced in our socks
52) things you said with my lips on your neck
53) things you said in the dark
54) things you always meant to say but never got the chance
55) things you said under your breath
56) things you said in the spur of the moment
57) things you said when no one else was around
58) things you were afraid to say
59) things you said after we fell in love
60) things you said [make your own]
the ones with single quotes arenât mine, but the rest are. great story and fic prompts
reblog if you want your followers to send you a number and pairing to write a fic about
(via robbersdjh)
Letâs try this? So number, character/pairing/group, fandom/âverse to the ask box. The Geek Show is coming up, so Iâd appreciate some prompts to help me out đ -jacksgreyson
I tend primarily to feel the most like writing when I’ve just seen someone else write something (or when I’ve promised someone else I’d write, lol), and I’ve loved what you’ve done with the Sakako and Fear To Tread stuff, and you were the first person I thought of when I came up with this (in the next ask):
Peeling away from your flesh leaves a lot of detail behind. The shape of âYouâ isnât the same as the shape of your body; the shape of you grows to fill whatever space itâs given. And when I step away from things, just for a bit, I feel bigger and bolder than I have ever grown inside. But I take the bags beneath my eyes with me, and the scar on my left arm (though I donât take the arm to go with it). I take my aches and my pains with me; I only leave behind the things that arenât me at all.
A/N: Not to curtail your prompt again, lionheadbookheads, but Iâm getting very strong vibes of Do Not Stand At My Grave And Weep by Mary Elizabeth Frye as well as that one other time you sent me a prompt about the songs âItâs Thunder and Itâs Lightningâ and âThunderâ and I guess what Iâm saying here is that I want to do a Tetsuki Kaiza piece for this prompt, I hope you donât mind.
Basically, given the whole âwho I am is not my physical bodyâ theme, there is a very definitive spiritual over physical and reincarnation message going on here and Tetsuki does do that so⌠please enjoy?
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Viridescent: Or, Tetsuki Follows Her Dreams
She closes her eyes, feels the sunshine warm on her face, and takes a deep breath; the spring breeze carries hints of winter still, cool and slightly damp, but the scent of early blooming flowers layers over that.
Her mobile phone buzzes in her pocket, a staccato vibration, a summoning. The man who pays her income but will never be her Boss, the man who supports her lifestyle but doesnât provide her survival, the man who determines her waking and sleeping hours but never her thoughts or dreams.
She opens her eyes, raises a hand, and lifts a gun to her temple. Inelegant, but efficient. It reminds her of home.
She pulls the trigger.
She wakes up.
///
She is born in the late autumn months, as both year and century draw to an end. She is born to Fuyuko and Toichi Kaiza in a hospital technically but barely within Tokyo. She is born a wailing, red-faced, and thoroughly average baby girl.
What happens to her after is far from from average.
///
For all that dream-sharing is a largely international industry, it would inaccurate to say that it is one homogenous community. They do not always match official country borders, but there are enclaves within dream-sharing with its own customs and cultures and rules.
Japan is one such enclave.
For the most part, so long as there is no immediate conflict of interest, foreign dreamers may conduct their business without any interference from local entities. This rule is but the second that broadly reigns over the Japanese dream-sharing community.
The first is simply: do not mess with Azuma.
///
The thoroughly average baby girl that will one day be known in certain circles as Azuma does not have a good or even average childhood. She tries to run away from her parents at age six and manages to elude the very expensive private detective service her parents hired for two weeks before getting caught.
Despite the broken arm, it is not the last time she does this. It will be another eight years and twenty or so attempts before she manages to definitively escape her parentsâ clutches and that perhaps has equal amount to do with them getting bored as it is with her expertise.
She is searching for people and places that donât exist anywhere but her own mind, but at least itâs better than staying where she was.
///
Saito of Proclus Global has three executive assistants, all of whom speak a minimum of four languages, are qualified as triple-A certified bodyguards and emergency medical technicians, and have extensive counterintelligence training, among other varied and useful talents.
Though the woman known as Azuma can also be described as such and is frequently seen in proximity of Saito, she is not one of said executive assistants.
Her talents are a little more varied and useful than that.
///
The knowledge she has is helpfulâblades and human vulnerabilities the same no matter what, languages and critical training filtering through as neededâbut she remembers having powers beyond physical possibility and thatâs what ultimately betrays her.
A teenager, no matter how skilled or smart or shrewd, will never be completely safe in the criminal underbelly of a big city. A lone teenager without any ties is a tempting target for many parties.
When they grab her, she fights. Foolishly, she thinks she can win. She forgets she doesnât have endless lightning at her fingertips, energy bolstering her muscles, superhuman and unstoppable.
When they grab her, she loses. She is just a teenager, and they are a unscrupulous, government funded company trying to pioneer an entirely new method of espionage.
///
Azumaâs patron is a matter of public knowledge. It is not a weakness.
Most professional dreamers in Japan have a primary sponsorâanother company, a yakuza family, a government officialâand while Azumaâs patron does not have technically have the most influence in Japan, well⌠Proclus Global. Money is its own kind of power. And thatâs not even including what Azuma can bring to the table.
Dreamers in Japan know better than to go after Azumaâs patron. Even non-native dreamers who have heard secondhand of Azuma know better than to attempt it.
Which is why, when Cobol Engineering tries to hire extractors to go after Saito, they are forced to outsource to an unhinged suspected murderer, his loyal point man, and a mediocre architect.
///
The early stages of Somnacin were riddled with problems. Unstable, inefficient, addictiveâanything that could have gone wrong, did.
Her body hated every second of it, every drop that coursed through her veins. She spent the next few years in a constantly nauseated state of misery, sick and shaking, more asleep than awake and so terribly weak.
Physically, that is.
Mentally, everything she had lost was regained. The power that eluded her in the waking world flowed easily at her command, the dreamscape the most welcoming place she had been in years.
The other subjects washoutâbrains fried, suicide, crumbling under the pressureâbut she remains. No, more than that, she thrives.
///
Azuma is not an extractor; she is not a point person or architect or chemist either. She can do all of those jobs, of course, but she thinks dividing roles that way is arbitrary and limiting. She is a professional dreamer, with all the responsibilities and capabilities involved.
Her outside reputation is as a forger, though that isnât quite right either.
Even in dreams, no one can do what Azuma can.
///
Tetsuki is happiest when she dreams.

Iâve abandoned my previous embroidery project cruelly and decided to start a new one.
(Will get to that prompt real soon, lionheadbookends)

