Counterclockwise (2016-03-23)

In a different life, maybe this would be easier. Maybe she wouldn’t have to ignore his crimes and maybe he would forgive her frequent departures. Maybe they wouldn’t be so hurt, their relationship a double edged blade.

But in a different life, they likely would never have met. Him dead millennia before she is born, no cursed pocket watch bridging the gap in between.

“I do love you,” she says as a sigh, as a confession, before pressing a soft kiss to the corner of his mouth. His face, cradled between her hands, goes where she leads. Pliant in a way he himself is not.

“I have always loved you,” he says back, breathing against her cheek, “You would have been my princess.”

Leanne can’t help the laugh tearing out of her throat, “You were a brat, then, I highly doubt that.”

Bastian jerks, dislodging from her hold; the fragile peace surrounding the moment shattered into dangerous shards. Accusingly, he asks, “You were that far back?”

“Once,” she says, pulling away, resigned to telling this story, “just once.”

She had only been then for a few hours, a sudden stumble that sent her further back than she’d ever been before. So far back, in fact, that she had no idea what was going on.

A palace and people in strange clothes speaking a language so far removed from what she she could understand, all staring at her sudden appearance.

Until a set of guards tackled her to the ground. She was lucky she didn’t break a rib under the weight of four armored soldiers. As it was, she did hit her head against the marble and black out immediately.

During his lonelier, more lucid moments, Bastian thinks about possibilities. About the past. About how, if he weren’t cursed to live on, he would have died alongside his family.

He thinks maybe there would have been honor in that. To have fallen and been preserved in that moment as a prince.

Better than languishing and festering into whatever he’s become.

But Leanne loves him, even if she doesn’t always like him, and that’s not something he could ever regret.

She woke up in what may have been a infirmary of sorts, though it was unlike the hospitals she knew. If anything, it looked like a high end spa. Open and airy, beds lined up like lounge chairs beside a pool.

The doctor, upon seeing her awake, said something to her, but she still did not understand and didn’t care to. Not when she couldn’t find her watch.

“Where is it?” she asks, a twisting barbed wire of confusion and panic wrapping around her heart, “Where is my watch?”

Since inheriting it from her father, since it claimed her as its own, Leanne has never been separated from her pocket watch.

She doesn’t know what will happen if she’s not holding it when it triggers: if it won’t activate without her there, or if it will simply leave her behind. Or if, somehow, the physical watch no longer means anything, if all along the source of the time traveling has been her.

The thought is too horrific to be true. She needs her watch back now.

Bastian is the oldest human in existence. He’s met beings who are older–creatures that various mythologies would describe as spirits or angels or gods–but they are inhuman despite their appearances. They do not count.

Bastian also has had the honor of meeting Doctor Kaiza, had the pleasure of laughing at her paltry two centuries of extended life. He’s seen ten times that and will likely see another. He has yet to meet Doctor Kaiza’s counterpart, the estranged Professor Greyson, but it’s only a matter of time. Even their brief existences are better than the mayfly lives of normal humans.

He’s a hypocrite, of course, because what is Leanne but a mere blink of an eye in comparison to him. No matter how frequently she pops in and out of his life, she will only last a short while. But god, he loves her so much.

Even with a possible concussion and bruised ribs, Leanne could knock out an unprepared doctor and escape an unsecured infirmary. Her team may have been allies with Cadmium PD, but vigilantes were always outlaws. In order to catch criminals they had to be criminals.

And also, Leanne had been practicing her right hook.

The palace was huge and unfamiliar, but the layout was simple enough to guess. And her watch had always had a hold on her, she could feel its call anywhere.

No one was looking for her but given her appearance she’s a fairly obvious outsider. She’d have to be careful otherwise her ribs might actually break.

Onward, onward, her watch called and onward, onward she went. Until she ended up at a wall; luckily, one with a window low enough for her to reach and climb through.

But the climbing ended up not being necessary because the watch came to the window. Or, rather, the watch was brought to the window instead.

The face was smaller than she was used to, hands chubby with baby fat, and when he smiled she saw two gaps where teeth should be. But it was a face she knew, nonetheless, and she couldn’t help a matching–if bewildered–smile.

“Bastian!” She called out, surprised but pleased, “Give me back my watch,” she said with an outstretched hand, ready to catch.

But Bastian didn’t know her, not yet, and besides his name he had no idea what she said. The watch stayed in his hands.

“Bastian!” she called out again, frustrated, and this time he walked away.

A strange woman climbing into the window of the prince’s room is a very suspicious thing indeed. Especially when that prince is only six years old.

Leanne is stabbed through the shoulder by a guard, but the commotion startled Bastian into dropping the watch. It’s in her hands before it hit the ground, just in time to disappear.

She better end up somewhen with phenomenal healthcare.

~

A/N: On a bus for eight hours, this is what came out.

Counterclockwise (2016-03-22)

He doesn’t know if the dead are watching him or if people simply cease to be when they die. Depending on his mood, his preference changes. He has a lot of dead to be watched by, after all; that’s what happens when you outlive everyone you love.

Sometimes he finds comfort in it–in imagining his family continuing on even after they’ve passed. Living somehow through him, his unseen shadows. Sometimes it pisses him off. That the dead would dare to haunt him, lingering where they’re not wanted. What right do they have to judge him? He is doing his best to survive a situation they’ve forced on him.

He hopes his father is ridden with guilt and his mother heart broken; he wishes his sister could see the disaster she wrought.

But, other times, he thinks it’d be best if the dead were no longer there.

“Look away,” Bastian says, to those who may not even exist, “Don’t watch,” he warns them before he sets the building on fire. There is no one inside, but it will be big enough that the heroes of the city will be called to help.

He wants to see Leanne again.

“Let me go.”

She doesn’t attend her brother’s wedding intentionally, but it is a good accident; one she wishes she had more of.

Her watch spits her out in a time that feels almost familiar to her. Close to when she would be if time travel never existed, but not exact enough for her to feel equilibrium. If she were ten years older, this would be perfect.

A church, decorated in white, flowers lining every door and stair rail. Too cold to be Easter, though, not festive enough for Christmas. Her guess is confirmed when a woman in a pantsuit and headset spots her and immediately begins rattling off details about seating arrangements and ushers.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Leanne says, if only to stop the flood of words.

The wedding planner, for surely that is who this woman is, blinks then startles. Then smiles, wide and fake, “My apologies, I thought you were the maid of honor. You must be one of the out of town cousins–you’re a few hours early.”

“Sorry,” Leanne says with a smile of her own, “I’m absolutely terrible with time zones.”

“Not a problem,” the wedding planner says, unaware of how much a problem it really is, “We can let you into the church early, if you don’t mind waiting. Family is always welcome.”

This, at least, Leanne hopes is true.

The decorations continue even inside the church, a trail of white flowers leading the way. The pots are discretely hidden away, and it occurs to her that maybe all of these flowers are still alive.

Well, if it’s Victor getting married, that makes sense. He’d never want cut flowers.

Leanne hears the susurration of voices down the hall–maybe the wedding party getting ready–she walks the other way. She’s not ready to meet her siblings again, or worse, meet someone who doesn’t know she’s their sister. If she doesn’t talk to anyone else, then she can be an observer still–a ghost in her own life.

When other guests begin to trickle in, Leanne takes a seat in the back. It puts her in the perfect spot to see the groom. The other groom.

“Caleb?”

Bastian has never met anyone with time powers before Leanne. She is the first and somehow, despite herself, the best.

As the years slip by, Bastian meets other time travelers. Including that absolute waste of atoms Sheridan, but none of them are like Leanne.

He is biased yes, but that doesn’t mean he’s wrong. Whatever is behind Leanne’s ability, the source of power behind that damned finicky pocket watch, it’s much stronger than whatever the other time travelers are using. It’s almost as if they need a constant power source to exist in a different time, whereas Leanne simply steps between eras.

Maybe one day Bastian will ask a time traveler about the mechanics–though they all seem wary of him. He knows they are from the future, he wonders what kind of reputation he has then.

No matter, he’ll live to hear it himself.

~

A/N: still some family things but I actually got to sleep last night so I’m not dying. Still only have access to my phone but also wifi so good news bad news and all that.

Untitled (2016-03-21)

The second morning of my Becoming is far from interesting. And so are the following twelve days.

Walking through flat lands with nothing in sight but grass is not the thing which songs are sung of. There are no rivers either, which at first made me wonder how exactly the grass could survive. Until a fearsome thunderstorm interrupted my sleep on the fifth night and continued all through the rest of the week.

With no shelter but a cloak and bedroll, it was not a surprise that I fell ill on the thirteenth day of my journey. It was a sign of poor favor from Kenadia.

And so it was less of a surprise when, on the dawn of my second week of Becoming, I woke to a sign of disfavor from Raehani as well.

Coughing and shivering, drenched and curled up in a pathetic ball on the ground, I woke up surrounded by a group of strangers wielding spears.

I never had any interaction with the few traders from the west. I was a priestess in training, and the youngest grandchild of the priestess and chieftain besides. I’ve never met anyone not of my clan before today.

The group of spear wielding hunters, waylaid from their search for game by the stranger in their lands, escort me to their village. It is strange in a way that makes complete sense, though it is not the kind of scene I myself am familiar with. The architecture of my home was, by nature, stone; caves both natural and manmade.

The village is as different from mine as the flat lands are the mountains, tents mostly. Beautiful tents, with fabrics of many colors and tall and wide and open. But temporary and so unused to what I’ve known. This is not a place where a clan can put down roots, entrench themselves into the ground and pass down the land throughout generations. This is a place of travelers, wind walkers.

This is no place for a girl from the mountains.

~

A/N: Related to the previous two untitled posts. just a small thing because i didn’t want to have a second missed post and so i did this on my phone and oh my god so much family stuff i’m so tired i’ve only had like a total of ten hours sleep in the last three days

Untitled (2016-03-19)

A/N: continuation of yesterday’s ficlet

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My Becoming calls me to the west, which is strange and frightening and thrilling all at once. For my clan is already the western most of the mountains.

It is not that the western lands are unknown, but we are not allies with any of them–only the rarest and luckiest traders come and go to the western lands. Though we treat them with respect, a lone trader is no way to build a relationship with an entire nation. Or nations.

Not even Raehani’s priestess and her odd warrior husband-to-be were in the west–no, they met in the south, in the lands owned by the Silver Emperor. And while no single clan is large or strong enough to take on the empire, it is agreed upon that all clans will band together to fight if necessary.

It has not been necessary, for there is not much in the mountains for the Emperor to want. And he is afraid of magic, or so the rumors go.

Not so for our neighbors to the east whose kings and queens are said to be even stronger in magic than Vaseika’s priestess, but they too find no use for our mountains. Which is just as well, what makes the mountains sacred to us means nothing to those whose ancestors are not from the mountains.

We do not speak of the lands to the north because those are dead lands. No, not even dead–for something must first be alive in order for it to die, and that is not the case. The north is a void, is oblivion, is emptiness. It is a blight upon existence and so we do not speak of it.

Though, to be honest, when my Becoming called on me, I was afraid it would have me journey to the north. I am not sure I would have had the courage to go, even if the Becoming had demanded it of me.

I am glad that is not the case. For though the western lands are a mystery, at least it is not the north.

On the morning I am to leave on my journey, each of the priestesses give me a gift.

It is not quite fair, for when Kenadia’s priestess went on her Becoming, the only priestess was Grandmother and so she received only one gift. Then Raehani’s priestess had two before her and so she received two gifts and so on.

I am the youngest, and so I am to receive four.

I am sure I will need each of them during my Becoming.

West, I am to go, leaving with the sun against my back, following my shadow until the day passes and I follow the sun as it settles for sleep.

The mountains are not so difficult to traverse, for I have lived among them my entire life, but it is strange to go in this direction, away from what is known and familiar.

Down, down, down, and westwards, and my first evening finds me at the foot of the western most mountain. The flattest lands I have ever seen spread before me. It should not be so intimidating, but it is–there are no hills or sheltering rock faces. Not even any trees. Just grasslands as far as the eye can see.

I spend the first night in a cave, unable to travel such a strange land with no sun or moon to guide me.

If a calling could be said to be indulgent, then that is what my Becoming felt that night, and it was enough to soothe me into something resembling sleep.

Untitled (2016-03-18)

We are the four granddaughters of our clan’s priestess. A good omen, our people praise, one for each of our goddesses. A threat, our enemies murmur for much the same reason.

Our goddesses are powerful, but covetous, as likely to curse us as they are to bless us. For every goddess is as a coin–two faces for a single being.

The first, grandmother says, is the goddess of fertility. Vaseika. She is new growth and harvests and births, and the good cheer of having plenty. But she is also famine, and lean years, and hunger etched into the sunken cheekbones of the children.

The second, grandmother says, is the goddess of peace. Raehani. She is the warmth of the home and the bonds of friendship stretched between clans, allowing trade and prosperity. But she is also war, the destruction and the chaos burning everything down.

The third, grandmother says, is the goddess of health. Kenadia. She is cool clean water and the knowledge that our bodies will not turn against us. But she is also disease and illness, doling out punishments to those who might not even deserve them.

The fourth, grandmother says, is the most powerful. Or perhaps she is the only goddess, each of the previous three merely facets of the one true goddess. She is the goddess of life. Or, she is the goddess of death. She has no name, but she is waiting, always, for her children and for her children’s enemies.

The four goddesses. And the four priestesses to be.

When we turn sixteen, four times four a powerful number, good and stable and holy, we are sent on our journey. For understanding and wisdom. Our Becoming.

Each of us feel a call, and we are responsible for following it, wherever it may lead. If we succeed, then it is only at the behest of the goddesses.

But if we fail? Then perhaps we were not good enough, perhaps that is how it is meant to be.

Of my cousins, I am the youngest, and so I am the last to go on my Becoming.

The eldest, who already has a talent in healing, and will no doubt become the priestess of Kenadia, assures me that it is not so frightening. For her journey was only to a neighboring clan, to heal the sick child of the chieftain, and thus secure an alliance that will no doubt last generations.

The second will not tell me what she did, for we are not close, but it is known that she was gone for many months and returned with a sword and an odd looking warrior that she did not leave with. Grandmother says they are in love and all is well; they will marry next summer.

The third no longer can speak, injured during her journey, and so her Becoming will be a secret to everyone in the clan. But she was victorious in all the ways that matter. It is a good trade, her voice for such strong magic; she is Vaseika’s chosen avatar, plants spring up beneath her hands.

I am the youngest, and so I am the last to go on my Becoming. I am sixteen this year.

It is far, wherever I am to go, the called something that I cannot explain in words. But Grandmother knows, has overseen many journeys, has been on one herself. She understands.

I am to go far, wherever I am pulled, and not come back until I have Become.

If I can come back at all.

It is no secret which goddess remains for me, and She is not kind in either life or death.

~

A/N: ?

edit: continued here

JackSGreyson’s First Embroidery Project!

(or, as my family has been referring to it: Baby’s First Embroidery. Which… I’m not even the baby of the family and it’s not like any of them embroider so…)

This one in particular is going to be a gift for family, but I’m wondering if anyone would be interested in buying something like this? Not this pattern, necessarily, but I have been considering doing maybe a Gravity Falls Prophecy circle

You can hang it up to freak out your relatives, or to warn future generations how to stop an insane demon from another dimension.

Or, well, I’d be willing to do other patterns, probably, if I can find them. Or if you want to send it to me. Something. I dunno, if anyone’s interested we can discuss.

Just wanted to know who this Bastian character is!

You want to know who Bastian is?

O_O

… (oh my god, I am so pleased by this ask) 

Bastian is one of my many OCs that I actually created many years ago but never used frequently. Originally, he wasn’t even supposed to be in Leanne Peridot’s story–he was meant to be an antagonist for another character entirely–much less such a recurring/prevalent part of her story and not even solely antagonist at that. But it’s one of those things where as a writer you’re less like god playing with dolls and more like an anthropologist observing whatever the heck your characters are doing.

In this case, it kind of made sense since Leanne Peridot is my inept vigilante/time traveler and Bastian is my… “guy who is accidentally cursed with immortality because the magicians trying to save his life messed up very badly” is kind of unwieldy to say. I only have maybe a few other “immortal” characters and none of them would put up with his particular brand of bullshit, so…

The basis of their relationship is that they’re both each other’s most constant thing in the world. But it’s a poor choice to make a person your foundation, especially when you don’t even experience time in the same direction. And I also liked the idea that her constantly leaving him (not intentionally) because of time travel would also add to his increasing madness.

It’s harder for me to ramble about Original Characters because even though I really want to, another part of me is thinking that, hey, maybe I’ll write this character’s story some day so I shouldn’t spoil it quite yet.

But it is wonderfully flattering for anyone to take interest in my original fic (though I do, obviously, enjoy writing fanfic). I am still smiling and blushing like an absolute dork.

Word Prompts (Q2): Queen (2016-03-16)

Once, when she had truly been a child, she wanted to be a queen. Not a princess, no, for princesses were often portrayed damsels in distress with crowns but no wits. They were passive and pretty and pleasant, and those were not things she had ever wanted to be.

But a queen? Queens, whether good or evil, they acted. They were rulers of nations. They made decisions and sometimes they failed but sometimes they succeeded, and regardless of the results queens could change the world.

Once, she had wanted to be a queen.

Now she is an empress over all of time.

She does not want that anymore.

There are people, a rare few, that she sees as more than simply fleeting sparks. Those who are cursed to live forever, those who she always returns to, but there is only one who is a constant companion.

And he’s an asshole.

Officer Sheridan begins reading her rights which is all he ever says to her, “You’re under arrest for the crimes of illegal time travel and…”

His equipment is newer–machines backed by actual computers calibrated to make every jump perfect–made centuries after she was born.

All she has is her pocket watch, scuffed and slightly dented, made with clockwork gears decades before she was born.

She will win anyway because, somehow, she always wins.

Once, just once, she intersected with her own timeline.

It was not entirely an accident.

She remembers this fight, vaguely, her team against a coven of witches and their reluctant demon counterparts. Thunderbolt had experience with both and was best suited to take point and, maybe, if that had been all it was they would have succeeded.

Except Bastian crashed the party and, for reasons unknown to her then, Bastian had the worst kind of grudge against her.

She knows now, why that is–the conflict of past and present and future with him twisting and clashing within her chest–she had once promised to stay with him always before she had ever met him. In a way, it was the truth.

In a way, it was a lie.

But now, from this side of the event, she realizes what must have happened. What she must do.

She had been aiming for this time only because it has been her goal for so long even if, now, she would no longer fit. And perhaps she is a few months off, but that is closer than she has gotten in a while.

And now she must abandon it.

“Bastian!” She shouts, and for one startling moment attention is on her. She sees herself turning her head to look but she doesn’t remember seeing herself and knows that she will be gone before she can.

This Bastian is mad, an abandoned wild dog, but there is still something in him that responds to her because when he lunges at her he does not go for her throat.

She takes his hand and takes him back. Back to when neither of them could hurt anyone but each other.

She will not see this century for seven years.

She’s never been far enough into the future to know what being arrested by Officer Sheridan entails. Truthfully, she never even knew there were other time travelers–actual travelers, not just people left to weather through the years–until said officer tried to arrest her.

She may have been the weakest of her team, but that did not mean she could not fight.

Of course, that only added to her list charges, but what does she care?

If she cannot be tethered to the present by her own will, how could any prison do the same?

~

A/N: some time traveling ficlets of the Leanne Peridot ‘verse.

Stories of Ancient Gods, a DoSxFFVII crossover drabble (2016-03-15)

A/N1: Okay, so you remember that ask about what I would crossover with DoS and I ranted for a long time and said I would probably not do any of them.

Well. I am a liar.

So here’s a rambling FFVIIxDoS-esque… thing… (only the barest of FFVII is actually used, really).

There is no fate.

Shikako believes this to be true–knows it is true, needs it to be true–because how could she exist, otherwise?

Because, if fate did exist, then what would that make the person who changed it? Either there is no fate, or there is and Shikako has diverted it.

No matter what the civilians think–of her and her teammates who took on bijuu and the human monsters that tried to control them–no matter the whispering she still sometimes hears when she closes her eyes and sees the ghosts of stars in her sleep, she is not a god.

She needs this to be true.

Planets change over time: continents shifting and mountains rising and oceans receding. Shikako knows that once the Land of Fire was more volcanoes than forest, Land of Wind was not always a desert, and even the continent of the Elemental Nations was not configured eons ago the way it is now.

She knows this from the past and so it is no surprise that something holds over from it. Mostly, the disbelief that humans existed before the planet had rearranged itself.

The Book of Gelel is old, the Empire of Gelel existing even before the Sage of the Six Paths which is–in the eyes of shinobi history, a very long time indeed–but the book speaks of even older civilizations who themselves revered an ancient race as gods.

Or, rather, goddess. One who saved the world from famine and war and pestilence and death.

Even if she were willing to ask the question, the only two jinchuuriki with whom she would be comfortable with asking are themselves not close enough to their bijuu to ask. Not with Shukaku gone insane in captivity and Kurama still so bitter and angry from being passed down like a family heirloom. Or a slave.

No, Shikako cannot ask Gaara or Naruto to pass on the question, and so there is no way she can get the answer.

It’s not as if she can ask Shukaku and Kurama directly.

And anyway, she doesn’t really need them to tell her about Kaguya Otsutsuki. Not when the whispers in her sleep already speak of that mistake and their redemption through Shikako.

Shikako learns how to be a sage not from the deer summons–who themselves do not have the knowledge–or from Jiraiya–who has an obligation to Naruto above anyone else–or even from the Fire Temples as suggested.

No, as with many things, Shikako learns from a book.

Well, a book and a stone.

Sometimes the whispers follow Shikako when she is awake, but only as flashes of thought. Nothing that would distract her during battle or put pressure on her already busy mind.

No, there is danger in offering too much all at once. They have learned that lesson the hard way.

But sometimes, Shikako will catch sight of her teammates, hear that flicker of thought, and wonder at the incongruity. Because no one would look at Team Seven and single out Sasuke as chaos. And only those who have not spoken to Naruto could ever consider him a weapon.

Kakashi is dangerous, yes, but never to her–and yet the whispers turn into a brief scream of fear and calamity.

It is better if she does not look.

Here is the problem with stories: they are only ever a possibility. There is no real ending in life and so stories, with such a brief glimpse into a world, cannot contain the entire truth.

Stories can be lies, and vice versa.

Stories can also be lessons.

Like an object in motion, at any given point in time, either its velocity or its position can be observed. But not both.

Shikako feels like object and observer and does not know yet what it means.

~

A/N2: Eeeeeeeeh? Yeah? I dunno?

HERE, TAKE MY THOUGHTS.

edit: now on ao3 as part of the Dreaming One Shots collection here