A/N: I still don’t know how I feel about Shadowhunters, but this last episode gave me Alec feels (unsurprising) and also I don’t want Alec’s “shame” for his feelings for Jace to be a sexuality thing so here’s… whatever this is.
(I should also probably mention that I have not read the books… like, at all? So literally all I know about this is from the TV series)
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Clary is going to be her parabatai, Izzy just knows it. Not now, of course, not when they’ve only just met and Clary’s life is all in shambles. But Izzy can see it.
Yes, Clary has been raised as a mundie all her life, and yes, she’s inexperienced in the ways of shadowhunters but that doesn’t stop her from being one. When she stops panicking and trusts her instincts, Clary has the makings of a great shadowhunter. A powerful one at that.
And Izzy wants her as her parabatai.
Already, she can feel the draw between their compatible spirits. Izzy has been uncharacteristically supportive of Clary, watching over her mundie friend, giving her advice, and even lending her clothes–which, as anyone at the Institute can vouch for, Izzy hates doing.
Being parabatai is something intimate–it means sharing power and sharing life. It means being more than just one person, but connected at such a deep level that two people might as well be one.
But it’s not love. Parabatai is being two halves of a whole, matching complementary parts, the left and right sides. But parabatai do not love each other, definitely not romantically, and not even like siblings do–to love your parabatai is akin to narcissism, edging into perversion.
Izzy is old enough, nearly twenty, to know that the attraction she feels for Clary isn’t love. She knows they will be parabatai soon. It’s a little on the young side, yes, but the Lightwoods have always been somewhat precocious when it comes to this matter.
At least it’s not her brother’s literal premature commitment at age eleven.
It’s not that she doesn’t like Jace–they grew up together, and he’s practically another brother to her–but she knows Alec’s decision to become Jace’s parabatai was foolish.
At eleven, Alec couldn’t yet tell the difference between brotherhood or friendship or love, he just knew that he was drawn to Jace. Knew that he wanted to be with Jace forever, and he thought that becoming parabatai was the answer to that.
Foolish. Short-sighted. And, ultimately, saddening.
Because at eleven, Alec may not have been old enough to wisely choose to be Jace’s parabatai, but combined they were definitely skilled and powerful enough to pull it off.
Forever binding her brother to Jace. Forever preventing Alec from acting on his feelings.
She’s old enough not to repeat her brother’s mistakes. Izzy likes Clary, but she doesn’t love her–they’ll be great parabatai.
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A/N: ¯_(ツ)_/¯
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