“close your eyes and breathe in your ruin” fake fic? dos kakashi?

This is definitely not a reference to anything, right? They’re two separate phrases which don’t appear anywhere together, right?

If it is a reference, sorry I missed it. Also, I’m gonna slap some parantheses on here; hope you don’t mind, anon.

close your eyes (breathe in your ruin)

Kakashi considers the shape of his failures and what it actually means to survive.

Or: the Team Sevens that was, never were, and is.

AKA Kakashi is always mourning even when he’s happy. Maybe especially when he’s happy.

We all know that Kakashi is the saddest string bean in existence and the title doesn’t really help matters, so instead of resisting I decided to lean into it.

This would definitely be a lot of Kakashi’s internal thoughts about his now dead team, the various genin teams Sandaime tried to foist off on him which he rejected, and his current team. And it features things like:

Comparing members of his first Team Seven to his current Team Seven. With some surprising match ups like Sasuke and Rin, Shikako and Minato. Though, of course, he does go through all combinations at some point.

The vaguest recollections of those genin teams he failed. Maybe the first one had a Nohara–Sandaime trying to hook him with sentimentality–but it was trite and that Nohara boy was nothing like Rin and Kakashi was offended that Sandaime thought it would work.

Imagining what the world would be like if his first Team Seven were still alive. Naruto would have grown up with a parent, of course, and Sasuke might not be so horribly alone. Would Obito and Rin have had genin teams of their own? Would Rin have been Sakura’s sensei instead of her going to the Medic Corps? Would Minato have a hand in Shikako’s burgeoning fuinjutsu education?

Etc. etc.

Not sure what else I can include in this brainstorm without outrightly starting to write this fic… Sorry it’s so short, anon. Uh please enjoy this fic rec which is the foundation for all my alive!Nohara Rin headcanons: Dinner with the Special Assassination and Tactical Squad by pentapus

Erm, but basically this fic would be about Kakashi the saddest string bean.